Part of dealing with PTSD is knowing what to stay away from, certain movies and tv shows that bring up the memories, When I went to see Captain Phillips, I balled up in a fetal position and ran from the movie in tears. The main character was in a helpless situation like I was as a child and an adult. I couldn't sit and watch it. I was watching a tv show the other day and it ended with the main character being a victim of child abuse. I never knew the show was going there. Sometimes it can't be helped. But my therapist told me not to see "12 years a slave." so I didn't. Find out as much as you can before you see a program that is going to affect you.

Had surgery last week. Had a Spinal Cord Stimulator implant. Sends an electric current to brain instead of pain. I told my 21 year old son I was like the "Bionic Man." He said "Who's that?" I said "The Six-Million Dollar Man." He said "Who's that?" I said "Lee Majors." He said "Who's that?" I gave up! Generation gap. Then I see him watching a movie. A Disney "Tarzan" movie. Animated. I asked what he was watching. He said "You've never seen Tarzan?" I said "Not the cartoon." He said "They have Tarzan movies that aren't cartoons?" I said "about 20." I was going to mention Johnny Weissmuller, but knew it was no use.