I asked my therapist how long I would suffer from the effects of PTSD. She gave me a "good prognosis." She has a scale from "poor prognosis" to "excellent prognosis". I noticed that I did not fall in the category of "excellent prognosis".
I still have episodes, such as the time I watched the movie "Captain Philips" and ended up in a fetal position for the last 15 minutes of the movie and on the drive him crying my eyes out...my wife was driving. In the movie, the main character was in a helpless" situation, although he was rescued. When I was a child, being beaten, I was in a "helpless" situation, but rescue never came. There was also the 60 minutes episode on PTSD that got me going.
I have come a long way in the last 2 years of therapy, once a week. I am now going every other week. In the two week interval, I write things on a pad to know what to talk about during my session.
There is hope, but like my RSD pain, I never know when a PTSD episode will hit. I don't feel safe going to movies with friends yet...unless I know that it is a comedy or safe.I know many of you understand what I'm talking about.
